An Anecdote

I was having a moment a week ago… and I wanted to share it with you.

“Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy…”

I technically should be graduating this Spring, but life is tipsy turvy and I will officially be at GV for another year. I wasn’t looking forward to it because I’ve been in such a rush to finish. Why? I’m not even sure. I have nowhere I’m trying to be, what’s the point in rushing when there’s so much I have to learn at this stage in my life. I have discovered an immense amount of where my depression has come from and what fed it… and still, feeds it. I’ve approached questions in my life with an open mind to try and understand why I’m on such a dirty and bumpy road. Some days I feel like everything has just gone wrong. I’m struggling financially to get through this last year of school, my grades aren’t everything I hoped they would be, but they aren’t bad, and every day my anxiety can bring my mood 180° and I feel like I'm at a loss for the day. 

But you know what… all of those things aren’t reasons to give in to the emotional power of sadness. I’m grateful for family, I’m grateful for friends, I’m loved by the most kindest people, and I'd like to think I have a greater purpose.

So to all my beautiful friends… life is going to throw some deep sh** your way, and you definitely feel it and it’s gonna feel like you can’t win it. But understand that those experiences can either build you or break you and you have the choice to pick. Pick life because you have so much to offer. Pick joy for yourself because you deserve it. Pick you. Because we’re in it together and you have friends to lean on, just take a leap and let someone hold you for a minute. Being strong all the time is hard. We were meant to share the load. Share the love, my friends.

So today, I'm smiling, because even though it’s a bad day… I have MUCH to be grateful for.